Cherish the Moments that Time Can't Erase

My name is Maya. The only time i truly feel alive is in the summer. everything good happens then. all my cares float away and everything somehow seems perfect even when its obviously not. I can not stand the winter, or rain. Im a lifeguard and absolutely love my job since i get paid for being in the sun and getting tan. Everyone thinks that im one of the most confident girls, when in reality i am one of the most insecure. I love trucks country music, camo, and cowboy boots. I live in maryland but want to move to somewhere in the south where everyday is summertime. i love eating, and food is the most direct way to my heart. I tend to be a perfectionist with my relationship which is probably the downfall to them all. I love the energy of concerts. I try to smile and remember everything i have to be thankful for, but usually the things im my life that arent perfect, make me forget that. I feel at home when im on the beach. The beach is somewhere where i can block out everything thats wrong, and just embrace the music filling my ears and the warm sand under my toes. I love long car rides at night, where i drive off to somewhere far away, and no one knows me, so i can be whoever i want. I play lacrosse and field hockey for my high school. I never do anything small, i have to do everything in a big way. I like planning every little thing out about my life, but those things never work out as i planned. Im always very stubborn. I dont mean to be, i just am. Once iv made loyalties to someone, its extremely hard for me to let them go. One of the hardest things for me, is letting people go, even when they dont deserve to even be in my life anymore. I love taking pictures. They capture a perfect moment that may have otherwise been forgotten along the years. I absolutely love starbucks and it can make my day at least a little bit better no matter what. When people remember the little things about me, its shows how much they truly care. Most people give up on me after knowing me for a while, and i really cant blame them. There is so much wrong with me and i just hope one day someone loves me enough to deal with all of my imperfections